| i HATE being lied to. it's just not even cool.
i shall bury myself in covers neck deep and watch james dean movies all day. he was a REAL man atleast.
xox
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| | Current Music: | Augustana-"Boston" | | Subject: | soooo... | | Time: | 04:19 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/pink/confused.gif) .dancing alone. |
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| tonight, i got stood up for the first time.
some boys just suck.
:( :( :(
i really liked him too. :/
i looked kinda cute too if i do say so myself...too bad for him. lol ;)
.dancing alone, dreaming solo.
on a much happier note...i saw kings of leon tonight at vandi univ. and they kicked butt! helped me escape this crazy world i find depressing lately.
YOUR love's the one worth waiting for. whoever you may be.
im so hot
im so hot
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| it's been a while i know! gee i suck at this lol it's just been INSANE..life that is lol. all i do is work! being a pre school teacher is VERY hard. not the actual teaching part...but everything else that comes with it. anyway im in the process of finding a new job because i cant deal with screamin kids all day annnymore lol i've permanently damaged my vocal chords so...taryn sounds quite different now...not manish or anything but yeah lol...kinda wraspy. i'll stop bitchin in a second i swear lol
so i've changed quite a bit i guess...good or bad i dont know...i miss the feeling of innocence.*sigh* i still have nooo luck with men in my life. although i've been hangin out with a really awesome one that gives me butterflies. heh.
you know...a year ago i was ASKING God for these life experiences that everyone else seemed to be having around me..like love, heartache, freedom, ya know..a little somethin to help me not be so naive about this world. but nowww...oh lordy...i got what i asked for and it hurts...but at the same time im appreciating it cuz im living...im feeling. this makes no since im sure. forgive me im just rambling lol. my mind is completely boggled and confuzzled tonight.
*sigh* i REALLY hate waiting to see if a boy will call you back or not!!! dont you? gosh...how frustrating and nerve wrackin is that ladies? lol guys...if ur waitin around on callin a girl just to look cool and act like you dont care THAT much...pick up the fuckin phone and dial the bitch! hahah for real! drives me crazy! lol
anyway...on a much lighter note...i got to see the bravery and vhs or beta with a cute boy last sunday and they gave me a kick ass rock show. then we came back to taryn's shanty of love and i got yet ANOTHER free rock show...and a kiss or 2 ;) heheh so yeah..check out vhs or beta...they bring the rock!
what the hellll am i rambling about? i need to stop drinkin beer this late and turnin my computer on..i gotta get up early tomorrow and like..teach kids they're A,B,fuckin C's and 1,2,3's and like..change diapers and wipe snotty noses and stuff...hahah..i sound horrible..i love those kids..i really really do! im just burnt out..and have had a terrible week!
so there ya go..that was a buuuuncha randomness and stupid shit for you lovely wonderful people to look at cuz im crazy like that!
dammit i want to hang out with some old friends and get drunk off my izasssss!!!
sometimes i wish i could press rewind and like..undo all the hurting i've done this past year. i feel like i've hurt everyone i've ever loved. ok...im startin to ramble agggain so im gonna say goodnight now. GOOOOOD night! sweet dreams.
*ok...crack me anooother beer billy* hah
xox
taryn IT UP! | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| gracious this song makes me cry!
hah! sooo..i think i might start writing in this again...my life is pretty much schmitz right now...sooo...maybe it'll help me a little...i really am sorry to everyone i've let down this last year...god im so sorry...im just a
little effed up right now i think...who knows whats gonna happen...my family is falling apart, i hardly get to talk to the love of my life anymore, my faith is struggling so much...so all of you..who listen...which i KNOOOOW there are some of you out there...please pray for me...i know GOD is there..i just feel numb and i cant seem to find Him at the time..but i still know He's there..if that makes since..hah...
God i feel so incredibly alone...i need a effin hug badddd...a lonnnng, loving hug..i havent had one of those in i dont know how long! i hate crying...my eyes get like crazzzy green haha..i scare the little kiddies at the daycare with em sometimes though..hahaha...they say "mrs. tawwwyn...you got da hulk eyes!" *siiigh* as much as my little preschool kiddies can drive me mad, they're the only thing that's driving me right now..children...and love for the unknown..hahaha..i just drive myself crazy..i know that...lol!
ok..im done now...i love YOU...
natalie..i love reading ur journal..you help me in ways you'll never know...and dannng girl...you are so beautiful!!!
i wish someone believed in me...i used to believe in myself..i dont know what happened...i just listened to the people around me too much! i need to fix that and get my head right! gotta fix my relationship with GOD first before i can do any fixer-uppers i do believe..heh!
ok..im really done this time i promise..haha!
xox, taryn, xox | | comments: 15 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | atreyu "lip gloss and black" | | Subject: | sorry for that! | | Time: | 01:36 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/pink/silly.gif) can we say...coocoo's nest? |
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| sorry for that earlier post! i was in a weeiiiirrrddd mood! and all the sudden i snapped out of it! lol! i don't know what is goin on in my head! but i do know i'm happy! not happy w/ school at all, but w/ everything else if that makes since! lol! my heart feels good! and i think that's all that matters! i'm too worried about the more important things in life...than effin school! it's just not on my list of priorities now! pssht...i told ya i's a confused kid! lol! more later..maybe! gotta do some talkin w/ the man up stairs! hehe!
xox, Taryn, xox | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | me chompin' on stale pretzels! yummy! :D | | Subject: | hidy ho! | | Time: | 01:27 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/pink/determined.gif) determined |
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| man o man! things are just too crazy right now! my head is just boggled! w/ good things mostly..but also bad things and weird things...and scarey things...and confusing things! whatever kinda thought u can have..i'm sure i have it! lol! i'm weird....i'm just in a daze or something! i dont know what i wanna do anymore...what i want for myself..is not what anyone else wants me to do! but i've realized that it can't be about how you're gonna make others feel! there comes a time when u gotta do for yourself..what u wanna do! otherwise, you're NEVER EVER gonna be happy! it's time to figure this out..and i gotta do it on my own ya know? i mean..i know what i wanna do! i really really do...but i want to make sure it's the right thing and i'm not gonna end up getting hurt or anything...but hey..life is all about taking chances! maybe being hurt might help me a little! blah..i'm blabbering on an on! forgive me!
much love to all! MMUUUAAAAHHH! :D
sorry if i dont' make any since! i just had to...get that off my chest! aaahhh! now if only i could do something about these boobs....lol! j/k! ;) | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | Saturday Night Live w/ Jude Law, yessss! | | Subject: | amelie gives me hope! :D | | Time: | 11:02 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/pink/worried.gif) scawwdy cat! scawwdy cat! |
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| sowwy i haven't updated in a while! i have a boring life what can i say? lol! amanda, davis, and i went to see THE GRUDGE tonight, holy heck, that freakin movie is soooo scawwy! jeez louise! and i'm by myself in the dorm! ::tear:: lol! i'm a chicken! anycrap, so the guy i was hoping for, let's call him Shmant(thx to Amanda's wits!) found out he has a girlfriend so poop on that! ok, well, i told u my life was boring, if anything new comes up, i'll be sure to post! :D
xox, not-so-Taryn It Up, xox | | comments: Leave a comment |
| friends.....I'm GLOWING!!!! :D and that's all i have to say about that! ::giggle::
life is spectacular,
xox, Taryn, xox | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| 1. Think of a word you would use to describe me.
2. Go to Google Image Search and search for that word.
3. Select the picture you see as most fitting, and post it as a reply.
4. Post this in your journal. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | tracy chapman~ "give me one reason" | | Subject: | i feel so weird! | | Time: | 12:46 pm | | Current Mood: | cookoo!!! |
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| it's official....i am the biggest weirdo to ever walk this earth! i wish i could just get alot of these thoughts outta my head! ugh! i drive myself crazy!!!!!!!!! blah! i don't even really know what i'm thinkin about half the time, there's sooo many different thoughts! good and bad all mixed together! phew! anyway, i'm in a weird mood and i don't know why i even wrote this stupid entry, i apologize! :D i'm freakin crazy-psycho is what i am! but i'm a hot crazy-psycho, so things even out! lol! haha, i'm so freakin funny i know! right....so anyway, i guess i'll stop trying to make since! weeellllll!
i think im done! i need to get a life! i wanna watch dumb and dumber!
crazy little weirdo, TARYN IT UP!!!!!!!!!!!! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AMANDITA, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!!!!!
*muah, i love you!*
xxoo, Taryn, xxoo | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Current Music: | belize~"less than a dream"*buy an EP from davis kids!* :D | | Subject: | i am speechless to say the least! | | Time: | 04:08 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/punquinheads/pink/happy.gif) grateful for...everything!!!!! |
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| hello hello! guess what, guess what??? i got to see davis' band belize for the first time last night and i was truely blown away! i honestly and truely love it! AMAZING! i got to see davis jammin so that was awesome AND i got to watch amanda be the band-mom! hehe! so cute, she is! got to meet the whole crew, very nice gentlemen i have to say! cool dudes! and i got to meet a guy named timmy, he was sweet! i think he used to hang out with craig's old roommate! he looked familiar! but anyway, i had TONS of fun! and i AM skipping algebra for the features tonight! :D i know i know....! but, come on! how many times can i go to algebra? and how many times can i go see the features? i don't know! u guess! hehe!
anyway, man everything is soo good right now! it's like nothing can stop this happiness that is goin around! it's contagious(sp)! life right now is like a dream kind of, it moves really fast, but slow at the same time if that makes since! i'm surrounded by GREAT people and happy people and that's just what i asked God for, and i don't think i can ask for much more! :D i have great friends! i can't even help but smile just when i'm walking down the sidewalk or to class all by myself! i just feel good! and that's a good thing! i've needed this for a while! i get so down on myself and that's just stupid! i'm hot, ur hot, we're all hot! so let's go! lol! i don't know what that means really but i can guarantee that someone does! lol!
anycrap, ummm.... yeah of course i had to pick the messed up cd at the belize show and i felt terrible b/c amanda asked davis to get me another one and we tried again, and it kinda got screwed up again, and i felt absolutely horrible! but it's cool! i'm soo diggin this cd! it makes me happy and want to dance around the room....with amanda, b/c she already does that most of the time! :D so cute...and oh so witty! :D
well, i need to get some homework done b4 the show, hopefully i have enough money to go to ben folds tomorrow night! i doubt it though! :( i hate money, boo! anyway, i'll talk to y'all folks later! have fun and be safe kiddies! mamma loves you! xoxo!
"don't let the bitters bring ya down"~tokin' tolcher! hehe!
xox, Taryn, xox | | comments: Leave a comment |
| hey kiddos!
man! i'm sooo bored! the Center is just not very fun today gang! when ur here ALL day, they run out of things for you to do, so you just sit there! although i did have to make about 4 trips to Cope today and 2 trips to the LRC all on different accounts may i add! lol! it was nuts, but atleast i got my exercise in i guess!
i love the people here though! Sharon, the front desk granny i like to call her, gave me her lunch today b/c she was goin out to lunch with her husband and she knew i didn't have any! so i had me some good ol' country fixins like mashed tatoes, fried okra, and some corn bread! yummy! it was actually very good! i know amanda's jealous, b/c we have NO food in our dorm room! don't worry baby, i'll save ya some okra! i know u like it! :D yeah, so i thought that was a very nice thing to do! so there, i got free lunch! that lady loves me, and i love her! :D
watched *nsync in the mix with amanda last night and remembered how incredibly fabulous we were in 8th grade...ok, how dorky we were, but who cares! it was sooo funny and so much fun! i felt like i was 12 i swear! amanda and i are like "man, we really did used to stop the tape and watch justin move in slow motion!" lol! craziness! but then, the douche bag of all douche bags, a.k.a. the clean-freak, bitch-ass sweepmate(u know u like that one amanda! ha!) anyway, she decides to come over and knock on our bathroom door and tell us to turn it down! it would have been alright if she wasn't so rude about it! that hidious face she had, i wanted to slap her and send her cryin home to mommy! she complains about EVERYTHING~the sink being clogged up, people smokin in the bathroom, the shower being...not clean, someone even had the audacity to pee in the toilet? *gasp!* yeah, can you say el jerko? heck yes!
im going home this weekend to see my mommy! there's alot of fun stuff goin on this weekend that i'm totally gonna miss, but, i shall return on sunday just in time to watch davis' show with amanda! i was originally goin to see my dad but he called and said they want him back on the bus this afternoon so he's already gone! :( i actually wanted to see him too! boo! anyway, no biggy! i just hope he's safe!
anycrap, i don't know if this weekend will top last weekend, but it should be fun! the cross clan's coming to get me tonight and we're "supposed" to be goin out to dinner! we'll see how that goes! i'm much more for stayin home and ordering a pizza and watchin a scarey movie! except no michael myers, he gives me the willies! :D i wanna watch something like really cheesy-scarey, like jason or something! the first jason cracks me up! it's a classic though!
oh, stella and daniel, you guys have to let me watch rocky horror with you guys b/c i've never seen it and think i'm gonna die if i don't! :D so, let's a make a movie night gang! it should be fun! :D
school is kickin me in the butt man! soo much friggin work!
alright punks, i'm outie! holler!! *sorry i know this was extremely long! i AM bored though!*
love,
~Tarino!~ that's spanish for Taryn, Amanda made it up! lol! :D | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| SO i feel incredibly sappy right now, and for that i'm sorry!
i got another email from my dad and it just makes me miss him! it's good for us not to see each other for long periods of time...well not long, but long enough! so we don't fight NEAR as much when he's home! so that's good! lol! no, my dad's a good guy, he means well, REALLY! :D
DO you ever just wanna cuddle up with someone that you love and just sit there forever, just holding that other person! doesn't necessarily have to be a significant other, but just someone that you love! sometimes i swell up with sooo much love in my heart that it just feels like it'll explode, and i can just feels the tears well up in my eyes, just for having that strong of a feeling! weird huh? yeah.....
anyway, i know i'm a dork, but maybe i'm a cute dork, so it works! lol! j/k!
SO amanda, davis, daniel, stella, jacob, and i went to see garden state tonight! i, personally, loved it! me being a sap n all! i thought it was amazing! and very well done! yeah the ending was cheesy, but HEY! live get's cheesy sometimes! i mean, do i have to point you up a couple paragraphs? lol!
I think it's this features song that amanda and i were listening to that got me all in this sappy mode! "you turn me on to the idea of growing old...i can make you angry, u can make me smile, we can do oragami(sp) with the kids for a while...." i mean COME ON! u know that guy is gettin laid! lol!
SAW mitch hedburg last night! FREAKIN AWESOME! i freakin love that guy! i just wanna hang out with him! it would be super fun! b/c i would probably just be hanging on his every word, just to see what he'd say next! that'll prolly make a guy feel awkward! :D *i'm sure that girl that offered mitch some vodka is sooo gonna pay for that! Mr. Pres himself was sitting right in front of Jacob....so he saw....and heard...it all! haha! suckas!*
OH goodness me, i need to hush! sorry guys! i think i'm just super excited about the weekend being here! and the fact that we don't have classes on monday is a very very big plus! no class, no work= lots of sleep for Taryn! woohoo!
OK, i think that's it, sorry if this was just discustingly mushy and cheesy! but hey, like manda says, i AM the mushy gushy girl! lol! :D...maybe she was referring to my fat rolls....hmmm? lol! no no, j/k! man....!
HAVE a great labor day weekend guys, much love yo! in mitch's words "shut the F*** up!...Mother F**ker!"
xoxo, Taryn, xoxo! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| u know, all this time i've been trying to push all these thoughts aside and just not think this way! but, i've come to the actualization that i just love my family more than they could ever possibly love me! and they just don't feel the same way! what i'm trying to say is is that i think they mean A LOT more to me than i mean to them! if that makes since! i mean, i know they "LOVE" me, but i just don't even feel wanted or like they give a shit! i'm just always on the back burner it seems! u can say that's all in ur head and all that schmitz! but that's just really and truely how i feel! i've felt like this for quite some time now! but i just have tried to just push it back there and be like "that's just pitying urself and being a little baby" but i'm tired of holding that back! that's how i feel, and that's how i've felt, so there! lol! maybe it's for the best though! since i'm going back to school and really just need to learn how to be one person individually and not just this huge ginormous family! *amanda knows what i mean! i know she does! lol!*
ok, sorry about that, i know no one wants to hear a little whiny-ass! but, i'm just in one of those moods that it just feels like nothing matters! and i almost feel like i've been this person for sooo long and dont' know if that's who i really wanna be or not! i know i'm just being a girl! and my mind will change in a few minutes i'm sure once i think this through! but, i just feel like almost tired of myself! i'm tired of hearing myself think, and just everything! but then again, i don't wanna be anybody else u know? am i making any since? sorry! i just want to experience LIFE i guess! i'm gonna stop rambling! i just really needed to get that off my chest! even if i totally won't even feel like this in a matter of minutes! i'll look back at this entry tomorrow and be like "man i'm such a wheener!" i feel so selfish sometimes! but amanda always makes me feel so much better! she's the one person in my life that just tells me how it is, good or bad, and i like that! :D i love her for that! and for being real! all of my friends are sooo incredible! if i didn't have you guys i dont' know what i would do! seriously, my family makes me insane, as much as i love them! ok, i'm gonna go!
*sorry about the whole rampage! i gotta get it out somewhere! :D
xoxo...Taryn...xoxo u guys mean soooo very much to me! and i mean that from the deepest place in my heart! | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
| | i'm feeling so deggum mushy! lol! that mushy gushy feeling makes me feel like a little school girl! and i have no reason to feel this way! i've just been listening to waaay too much of the cure! lol! i love them though! they describe everything so well! plus, i'm probably feeling this way b/c i miss everyone sooo much and i'm ready to go back to school! i gotta stop procrastinating and go get my stuff out of the shed already! dang! oh well, can't wait to see you all! xoxo! ~me! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| man o man! my last day at the day care was absolutely horrible! i got puked on, got poo on my hands from a 4 year old, portuguese(sp) speaking, a-hole! and to top that off, i was there from 6:45 to 6:15 and then didn't even get my check! and i'm just freaking sad b/c i'm gonna miss those kiddies sooo much!....except that poo slinging, portuguese kid named NeNe! i know i know, i'm going to hell! ok, aside from all the bitching........
wow! last night was friggin awesome! i met some REAlLY cool people and had lots of great fun!....until...dun dun dun.....the friggin COPS CAME! dang! what was that? well, atleast we'll be talkin about it for years to come! lol! all i know is i was scared to death! and i have never seen 20 people clear a room that fast! that cop was kinda funny though! he made me giggle inside...for like a sec! but then i got back to serious side and was totally cool.... :D i felt sooo horrible leaving stella there with that cop by herself! the look on her face made me want to cry! we couldn't find daniel! i hope u guys didn't get in trouble! well, let me know what happened kids!
amanda, the one night we're not drinking, the cops come and ruin it! but atleast no one was naked! lol! :D what was up with that guy running from the cops? that was kinda weird...his name HAD to be Brad! lol! ok, gonna go get some ham for tina the llama! i might whip me up a quesidilla(sp)! :D THX FOR THE PARTY DANIEL, STELLA, AND VIOLET! WE LOVE YOU GUYS! Stella, ur legs are like butter!(say in an arrogant northern accent!)
stolen from xstarsfadex
what song, if any, reminds you of me?
(put this in your journal too. the answers might surprise you.)
*i'm such a try-hard i know!*
xoxo...Taryn...xoxo | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
| ok, so i had this HUGE entry and i be "deg freakin' gummit" if i didn't go and erase it! i have a feeling this computer and i are about to rumble! lol! :D so that whole entry can be summed up like so:
*i think ENTIRELY too much!
*i was super excited i got to hang out with Daniel and Stella!
*amanda and i decided to have movie nights again in the deere dormatory of love! lol! so bring ur movies kids!
*amanda is THE coolest for watching Finding Nemo with me!
*drinking and a head cold really don't go together well! especially if u have to work the next day! ugh! :D
*Sinead O'Conner's "nothing compares 2 u" is the best song EVER! period!!!
*now i realize it was probably a good thing that i deleted that entry! considering this is getting pretty dull!
*i miss u all very very much!
*napoleon dynamite has to hurry up and come out on DVD!
* "i saw a horse kick a woodchuck over a fence once..."
*i think i'll shut up now! lol! :D oh.....
*and i freaking love U!!!
xoxo...Taryn (like "tearin'" it up!)...xoxo
p.s. "are you gonna eat ur tots?"
p.s.s. i think that the </strong>"boa-KIP-strictor" </strong>is </strong>gonna </strong>be </strong>a </strong>doosy!
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